Decide

Inside my head is a million-piece jigsaw puzzle,
I used to think i knew the big picture
After looking at the front of the box once.

Inside my heart is a million-string instrument,
I used to feel i knew the melody of that song
After hearing the masterpiece on the radio once.

Inside my soul is a million-thread count carpet,
I used to understand how each strand was in place
Before i let people step on while passing by.

Inside my body are millions of cells holding me together,
I used to know how to use most of them when i needed to
Before i slowly tore it down coz i don't understand anymore.

Outside my body are a dozen things that made me uneasy,
I used to not care because i was secure it wont affect me later on
After a year into puberty, i realized i was seriously wrong.

Outside my soul are a few blips of different opinions,
I used to listen to each of them intently and sincerely
Until the voices turned to noise and I can't decipher any at all.

Outside my heart are a couple of people who made it dance
I used to let myself be carried away by the carefree and happiness
Until the beat broke both my feet and i was left a cripple.

Outside my head is one simple mystery
I used think about it constantly, concentrating and deliberating,
Until the little gears inside me snapped apart.

Now how am i to decide?

  ~mje Monday, September 21, 2009 at 10:16am